post37
3more days to MOB paper! >< time sure is running out. sighs. exam ry aint my cup of tea sia. wed had GP and Chinese paper and seriously, it sucks. GP essay i wrote de wrong topic and walarh! i'm bound to fail my essay -.- compre was quite easy for me but everyone else finds it hard, weird. chinese compo i think i wrote like SHIT, serious. chinese paper2 was.... tiring. was half asleep when i did de paper. so i dun think its gonna be anybetter. lol. sighs. now rly rushing like crazy to master MOB sia :l if i dun master it, it will be game overrrrr! lol. so monday its a make-or-break day :l


imissyou. but i couldnt let myself be distracted.
i rly couldnt help thinking about everyday, every moment but is it de same for u?
everytime i start folding those hearts i rly couldnt bring myself to go think about u.
thinking about u jus brings me clashing feelings. it jus stop me from focusing :l sighs.
i rly wanna know wad u're thinking but i couldnt bring myself to ask :(
11:00:00 PM


post no.36
sorry i didnt update for so freaking long. dunno wad to update.
in a flash and its alrdy reaching promo2s.
de fun and laughter of june holiday seem so far-fetch.
giving up on econs for promo2 so purely focusing on POA and MOB.
now its all or nothing, promotion would mean SPC and 09B1 and MIVB(:
fail to do so and its byebye. de words tat i could never bring myself to say.
so i'm gonna work real hard and reach for promotion.

anyway, tis post is emo. so dun write de following if u dun like it. (i'm serious)
i'm sorry. sorry about ytd, sorry about everything.
maybe i was being too insensitive and selfish and irrational. maybe i rly dun understand.
i'm sorry for not being able to understand de situation u are in. if u think i'm rly better off not knowing anything tat is bothering u den be it. i should never ask, i should never cross tat boundary tat u've set.
since u dun wan me to worry anymore, i will do my best to not worry. but i'll keep my word and complete de hearts tat i promise i'll gif u when Nlevel finishes. i'll share all my joy and happiness like always. i'll put on tat mask of a smiling face in front of u, since i made de wrong choice to remove it. maybe de one u like wasnt de true me, but de one wif de mask. i know i have no right to make u or force u to do anything, so i'm not gonna do those things anymore. everything tat has a beginning, has an end. is tis de end for us? i rly dunno. i dun wan it to end but things seems to jus get from bad to worse. or maybe i rly am hopeless when it comes to love. so i'm gonna to jus step back from ur world, to somewhere far away to look over u. i jus wan u to know tat everything i do, i do it cos iloveyou. i hope u'll understand. i worry about u cause i care about u, but since u dun wan me to worry den i guess i'll jus force myself not to care. de struggle, de heartaches and de memories, i'll safe keep everything, i'll make sure it wouldnt reach u. den at least u wouldnt feel pressurize, u would have something lesser to feel stress about. den at least u can go back to wad u're xi guan of and u can go back to de live u have lived in for de past few months. if anyone were to be shoulder de wrong s of it, it will be me not u. u have every right to choose de live u wan and i was jus forcing my love and ideals on u. sorry. i still love you, and will always love you. i hope someday when de time comes, u'll truely understand how i felt and de pain tat i went through.
6:27:00 PM